When you THOUGHT you're this significant someone's source of happiness , and then he spat to your face you're NOT . He said he actually suffered at times . Kudos . And you feel like leaving or running away , to somewhere far and isolated . When you lie down and stare at the ceiling , reminisce all those times you spent with that person . When all those times you thought he was having the time of his life , well fat chance bitch , HE'S NOT . You should just stop trying k . Your effort is going nowhere . You're nothing near nice or sweet . No matter how hard you try , you're still the worthless bitch through and through . Get a grip on yourself . Learn to live on your own . You're no saint , no angel , you made mistakes , you've sinned , you're bad tempered , you're a spoil brat , you're arrogant , you're a snot , you're mean , you feel insecure most of the time , you act like you're always happy , you make people feel like trash , but you're real , little bitch . I'm only human , I have flaws which can fill a whole mahjong paper . If people still can't accept it , what can I do about it ? I tried changing . Tried being something else . Turns out it's still not working out . Stop fooling yourself , little bitch . Just stop trying , bcs it's a vain attempt .