A friend in need

i just need someone to talk to, to cry to

Last year, i tried once to tell my 14 years of friends how i really am feeling, but it failed.
the reaction i get was not as expected. I decided not to tell the whole problem that i am facing.

There is one person that i told literally everything, but what that person said to me is “meroyan”

I also tried to tell my recent acquaintance, i did tell what i was facing but not the entire story, not the whole truth. Because i know, that friendship would not last, & he may judge me (or in other context, think imma freak & distance himself // well eventually he did, oh no, i did? but, i made it easier for him. i know he could not utter the words, so i helped him)

I only have you blog. The only thing that will not judge me. also will not respond to any of my ranting pon. huhu. I hope you know why i dont ever try to open up. There is this big big big wall inside of me. i hope one day, it will break.

some will say, tell ur family. I FREAKIN DID. what i get was?? Idk. devastated.

Blog, i am tired. I am tired feeling hopeless. I am tired trying to get the attention i need. I am tired for being good to others but in return, i get shit. i am tired of crying. Crying for help. Crying for love from my family (and friends)



Btw, Here is a picture of my cat trying to console me. I think cats have six sense. She came in when she heard me sobbing and meowing like asking me am i okay or something. Dia terus panjat katil, baring atas kaki and then use her paws like urut2 my body??? Hahaha so cute of you. But ur kuku is so tajam!!!! i know you’re intentions are good Coco. But you’re hurting me in the process. Nevertheless,
I love you Coco. You always cheer me up when i am down. 🥰😻😿